bismillah…
salams dear brothers,
For me, the path of Allah was
opened after an incident.
I was enjoying the reddish youth in college. And at that time, a messenger came to remind me of the upcoming and the present. At the initial stages I did’nt take care of it. I wished to get out of such people. I thought they are blocking my way at that time.
As days passed by, one day night i felt a severe head ache, which prevented me from sleep. As time went on, it became worse and worse. The inner pain was severe, that i thought I am going to die that night. At that time, I came to realize that nothing is under my control. There is one power that drives me every second. He has been driving me for the whole life passed. And I, the blind was not seeing it. At that time I thought of the person who spoke to me of Allah, and life. At that time I realized that whatever he spoke was true. I felt deep regret and I cried that night. I asked Allah for forgiveness, and yearned for a chance. I told Him that I will follow your messenger, for the rest of my life. And He did so, Alhamdulillah.
The next day morning was a new life for me. The tha’leem that i attended after this incident, was days of magical experiences. It opened my heart to the beloved. My mind came to peace with Allah and His rasool. Ayats, Hadiths starts living in me and my brothers. My inner-sight changed, and my approach to life too. All things around me appeared as a window to see Allah’s love, alhamdulillah. In myself, I found Allah’s love pouring in as a stream.
My Shaikh, told that Allah, the beloved Has drawn me towards Him through that Head-ache. He did’nt let me go as I wished, Alhamdulillah.
All these, when I am with my Shaikh and my lovely brothers. Whenever I am apart from them, mentally I felt frustrated and the selfish nafs rises up , and puts me in hell. But my Shaikh raises me to Heaven, through his mercy. And that is what is happening now. My true state is as bad as before, and he cannot see Allah, he does not beleive in Allah, he dont know how Allah is associated with him. My Shaikh is showing me every instant, Allah’s attributes, Allah’s love, Allah’s forgiveness…Alhamdulillah.
May Allah not separate me and all saliks in the world, from their Shaikhs. May Allah illuminate the dark hearts. May Allah forgive us all for what we have done……Ameen
love
shibly
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